freedom

[Confuzedinlimbo]

ok, i know we all deal wth the issue if freedom some time or another but i am obsesed with it. my parents are relativly normal and give me freedom, but the thing is they are so resonable, its driving me insane.
I feel things...like...the promise if life and living it to its fullest excites me. I mean, how many 18 yr. old girls do you see on motorcycles?? I want to be that girl. I want a lip and nipple ring, I want to go skydiving. I want to see everything learn everything, I love school. I love meeting people of diff. race withiff. backrounds. I love listening to all of you on this site. I want have sex (but then theres that reprocussion of not being a virgin anymore and i dont want to deal with that if i decode to get married and the guy cares). I am for the most part at peace with my religion and try to be a kind person.
I keep telling myself that its ok to break little rules (ex:hook up with guys or ditch class) and that in a few years I'll be able to party but now i need to focus on my future. Its getting hard.
my biggest outlet for my struggles is throu music. I love smashing pumpkins,third eye blind, eve 6 and korn. I love old music (blues) and new.
I love dancing.

[Comfortably Dumb]

Well, you seem like a very open and cool person. Congratulations to you. Try staying away from the nipple ring though. I'd post some pictures of how disguting it will look in a couple of years, but I'm sure it'll get edited.

[luckst4rs]

i totally get how you feel. my parents are pretty cool with me. i get away with doing lots of crap. they let me go over peoples houses and have friends over whenever i want. they let me go to concerts on school nights or whatever else i want. yes they won't let me do whatever i want but i'm relativly free for a 16 year old kid. but sometimes i wish i had more freedom but i guess it's also within judaism and school than my family. some rules i feel stifle my desires so i break them which is bad i guess but i feel no remorse. i do what i want because the things i do don't hurt anyone.

[Confuzedinlimbo]

thanks you guys. i dont think ive ever told that to more than one person in my life and honestly, i was very nervous about what people would say (im not sure why). anyways, yea, my friend and I are planning a road trip at the end of senior year. nothing drastic, maby we'll only be gone for a week. my parents are not ok with it at all but i need to make them see that this is nesacary in order for me to be at peace with myself. I dont want to live vicariously or go through life saying "what if."

its hard for them, especally for my dad, because they say i am and always will be their baby and their little girl. its sweet, but im not a little girl anymore. I love them too, but if i crack a joke about drugs or something my dad gets very offended like he doesnt want to hear it, even though i was only joking.

the deal with my mom, is that she thinks that the second every guy out there sees me, they will instantly start plotting ways how to gang rape then kill me. im not exxagerating. she wont stop talking about how "well endowed" i am or that every shirt in creation is too tight. I live in a very jewish protected neighboorhood and she wont let me walk my dog alone outside because i might get kidnapped. I feel liek she protects us from her own fears.

Like i said, they are great parents but I need something more. i guess up untill college you are just a rat in a cage, working your *** off so that your future can be better.

[Confuzedinlimbo]

dumb-why? the area gets infected?
luck-"i do what i want because the things i do don't hurt anyone." i know how you feel. i (think i) know my limits and what i would do, but the probem is my parents dont, so they have to assume the worst to keep me "safe."