alone

[Confuzedinlimbo]

I feel like my whole life i have spent alone. in my elementary school i had a new group of freinds every year and in high school my friends...lets just say i doubt some of them even considered me their friend to begin wth. like, my group of people always seemed to be in fight with eachother but never showed it. (i couldnt take it anymore. this among other reasons is why i switched). so i am alone again. there have been a few points in my life where i have looked in the mirror and found myself alone again. like i just went through another ordeal, got through it and am right back where i started. friendless.

I feel like im walking this world alone. everythign i experience, it involvs others but is mostly a struggle within me. there is one person who i feel comfortable enough talking to about my innermost feelings but she cant relate. i need someone who can relate. I love being different but i dont want to be alone.

[kiyara]

hey there,
i hear you. i really hear you. Like, I really hear you! I know how this is just a website and who knows who the ppl are and if they are really in you situation at all, but I am telling you, i undersatnd. on the outside theires all the daily drama of friends/cliques and other high school stuff, but a lot of times theres this overarching/underlying(over/under...haha) feeling of loneliness because say my family doesnt understand me, and friends are great but does anyone really understand me? i barely understand myself...
I hear, Im with you. in any weay that i can be.

[The Nameless One]

i startd a new high school alone, and i comepleatly understand u, i had no friends at the beginning and i have some now. others i think are using me for homwork help and academics, but there's not much i can do to stop it. Making new friends is hard 4 me and most of the time i feel so alone, there's nobody i can talk to, my old friends ditched me for Japy girls who i can't stand, in fact i can harly be in the same room as my old friends. As for my new friends, like i said i can't tell who's using me and whos not and it's rlly annoying, i'd advise keeping a diary, i don't b/c i have no time, but the few times i tried it really helped. Meanwhile try to make friends and don't let them know what kind of grades u get in school...

[elbubbniaevili]

I know how u feel, I just recently started at a new school, and not that i dont have friends but i am really alienating them because of a fight I had a former that ended up in his parents threating to press charges. I really miss the friend i use to have,who no longer waants to any contact with me,and even though i have other friends, they dont understand what im going thorugh, i feel alone so much of the time

[Justapnut]

Here's the thing, I have friends, a group of 6 girls, but sometimes I feel like the odd one out. It's really hard cuz I'm generally shy and when my friends go off on their own and I feel left behind, so during free periods I find myself roaming the halls alone, it's horrible.

[2face78]

its hard for guys to relate bc the whole click thing does not really exist with guys. at least as far as i no
IM OUT

[ElectricMayhem]

I used to be in basically the same situation. I had maybe one good friend, but that was it. And we never really talked outside of school (still don't, except for stuff related to school). Eventually I realized that all I needed was a little confidence. I know that it sounds a little weird to say that, because it's hard to have confidence without friends, but you kind of have to take on an attitude of yes, I'm worth something, I'm worth the time for people to get to know me. And you also have to look for people who display interest in things that you like, since common ground will always make it much easier to "get in" with people. For example, when I was a freshman, I was able to fit in somewhat with a group of seniors simply because we were all into Jewish music. And while I'm still not exactly the most popular kid in the class and am still rather socially awkward, there are...let's say, other environments (don't want to name names) where I can pretty much talk to anyone, where people will come over to talk to me. Which brings up another point - putting yourself into an environment where people don't really know each other so well, like a shabbaton or something, is a great way to form really deep friendships (it doesn't work for everyone, but it can be great for a lot of people), because cliques can't really form when the people are just stuck together for a weekend; you can catch people sort of off-guard, they're not trying to exclude, they're trying to look for someone to talk to, and who knows - maybe you could end up enjoying talking to each other more than either of you thought.
Also, as The Nameless One said, writing down what you're feeling or what you're going through is a great way to get your emotions out and keep them from building up to the boiling point. And if you need advice, there are always people to turn to, you just have to look for them. Whether it's your parents, one of your teachers, a friend, or even right here on theLockers, there's always someone to help.
And remember, finding friends isn't just dependent on you. You might be in a place where everyone is a jerk. Then it's not really your fault. But remember, there are people out there who do care. Not everyone is a jerk. Eventually, anyone can find a friend, if you're able to look in the right places.

[WhoAmI]

Confuzedinlimbo dont wrry. youre not alone, no matter how much u feel like you are. use whatever friends you have even if theyre tired of hearing your issues, use them and make them care, then work on yourself and being more outgoing. good luck.