Oy gevalt

[WriterAtHeart]

Does anything ever go right in life? So, in chronological order, the things that haven't been in mine...

At school orientation I was thrilled, since we got the homeroom class lists (which also determines the non-tracked classes we're in, which is about half the day), and they put me in a class with all my friends and all the people I want to be friends with. That night the guidance counselor called me and forced me against my will to switch into the other class, but on the condition that I can switch back if I'm unhappy. Miserable, I went to her at the end of the first day of school and she told me she would try to reswitch me. After stringing me along for the weekend, she told me that I had to see the principal. I put my name on her door (procedure to make an appt with the principal at my school), but she didn't call me down, so I'm praying for Monday. She's never gonna call me down and never gonna switch me, because all the admin at my school are soulless, heartless *****es. ARGH.

So let's not forget that my dad has severe OCD, I have a hypersensitivity to it, and my mom's going crazy since we're trying to put him in a nursing home/assisted living and nothing's working out. On Rosh HaShanah he wanted to talk to me, which I've been dreading forever, and you know the lame-*** excuse I used? "I gotta daven." Oy. I did actually daven, which I hoped would save me from ever talking to him, but God apparently has no mercy for me and later he called me over and was like "Ma told me that you don't want anything to do with me" and it's like, yeah, I wish the ******* would drop dead and as soon as we get him out of the house I'm never talking to him again and the day I turn 18 I'm changing my last name and have already gotten rid of my Hebrew middle name that was after his side of the family, but I could hardly say that to his face, so I was just all "no of course not" ARGH.

That, along with the fact that I just spent four days cooped up in the same apartment with my dad and no computer or iPod access, has made me want to rip my hair out in frustration.

Anyone got chizuk (strength) for me?

[knock6495]

Ugh. Things do go right in life, but you've got quite a streak going there. With regards to school, I think you should be either respectfully persistent (best way teachers/principals let you get what you want in my experience) or resigned to making the best of the situation at hand. I'd still shoot for the former, because school has JUST begun. Either way, it'll get better. From my vantage point, it's got to.

[WriterAtHeart]

Ugh. Things do go right in life, but you've got quite a streak going there. With regards to school, I think you should be either respectfully persistent (best way teachers/principals let you get what you want in my experience) or resigned to making the best of the situation at hand. I'd still shoot for the former, because school has JUST begun. Either way, it'll get better. From my vantage point, it's got to.

Tell me about it. *sighs* My plan is to pretty much sit in the principal's office until she sees me on Monday if she doesn't call me down close to the end of the day, and if I don't speak to her then I WILL sit in her office on Tuesday until she sees me, and then if she says no I'll have my therapist call her and tell her I'll slit my wrists if I'm not with my friends, and then if my principal still says no (which she probably will) then my mom is gonna storm in and make her feel all guilty and crap. That's gonna work. And if not...well, we have some pretty sharp knives...I'm sorry, these are really tasteless jokes. But I'm really majorly depressed, I'm literally in tears in class since there is literally NOBODY in my class that I like or have any desire to get close to.

Well, the only way this could get any worse is if my school finds out about my blog, which they'd expel me for. *rips out hair in frustration and bangs head against wall*

[knock6495]

Well, the only way this could get any worse is if my school finds out about my blog, which they'd expel me for. *rips out hair in frustration and bangs head against wall*

Look on the bright side. If your school is so religious, they probably can't admit they've seen your blog. :)

[WriterAtHeart]

Look on the bright side. If your school is so religious, they probably can't admit they've seen your blog. :)

If they find it, trust me, they will admit it. *sighs* But I saw my principal and she said she'd get back to me in the next day or two, and there's a parent event at my school on Wednesday, so my mom'll yell at them then if necessary.

[yeheyehtov]

so about your school situation, have you switched yet? why dont you tell this school guidance counslor how important this is to you. maybe try to get really close to a girl or two in the class you are in now. i know it always helps me when i talk to my friends and be honest. why dont you tell a girls or two that you really wish they were in your class and you can get together sometime. good luck!