Back From the Dead

[darkfairyeyes]

Hey guys,
It's been forever since I've written in this and considering I'm sick right now with nothing better to do I thought I would. So as most of you know, I used to post on here at least twice a day and all that but a lot happened to me and I stopped. I guess I'll start from the beginning. This year has been crazy for me.In the beginning it didn't seem so bad. I was starting group therapy and I felt really safe. Just then I had a death in my family. I guess I didn't know how to deal with it. I'm a smoker now. I had sex with all of the wrong people. I don't have a normal conception of self worth. My friend killed himself. A lot of people abandond my trust and therefore did it to me. I felt so alone it was ridiculous. To be honest, I still havn't given most of the people that did that another chance yet. I'm back in therapy. It's been intense latley and I just felt the need to leave everything from my past behind because I just didn't want anything to do with it. Sadly my past is part of me though. And so maybe this post is just a word to the wise. Maybe it's to tell you I'm back. Hopefully you guys are doing okay. Dissapearing from the world sort of sucks.

[whuknu]

Hey guys,
It's been forever since I've written in this and considering I'm sick right now with nothing better to do I thought I would. So as most of you know, I used to post on here at least twice a day and all that but a lot happened to me and I stopped. I guess I'll start from the beginning. This year has been crazy for me.In the beginning it didn't seem so bad. I was starting group therapy and I felt really safe. Just then I had a death in my family. I guess I didn't know how to deal with it. I'm a smoker now. I had sex with all of the wrong people. I don't have a normal conception of self worth. My friend killed himself. A lot of people abandond my trust and therefore did it to me. I felt so alone it was ridiculous. To be honest, I still havn't given most of the people that did that another chance yet. I'm back in therapy. It's been intense latley and I just felt the need to leave everything from my past behind because I just didn't want anything to do with it. Sadly my past is part of me though. And so maybe this post is just a word to the wise. Maybe it's to tell you I'm back. Hopefully you guys are doing okay. Dissapearing from the world sort of sucks.
First, welcome back!
Second, wow. Its probably good that you got that all out. As you know DFE, we are always here for you. At your lowest or highest points. I dont know what happened, but last year it seemed you were doing well. I know it looks tough now and things are looking waaaaay down, but u can see from your past that you have the ability to reach a certain high, and Im sure that you can go even higher.
You shouldnt be sad about the past. I feel that regret is a waste of time. Lifes to short. Rather than regret the past, learn from it. Remember it, keep it with you. Remember that once you had a low and now (well hopefully soon) u r much better. Sometimes man has to drop so low in order to see what he has and trully appreciate it.

[WhoAmI]

darkfairyeyes i've been around for a while too and i remember your old posts. look, even though with everything you just described things seem nuts-- you have no idea how nice it is to hear from you again. you're thinking, why? i just explained everything sucks? because you're still here and through it all you're still here and that's what counts. good to see you.